Why I’m Choosing to #LeaveThePackBehind

 cr: American Cancer Society

cr: American Cancer Society

They say addictions are tough; withdrawal is horrible. This is my story.

It was first year and I didn’t really know anyone. I grew close to a few people in my classes. Sometimes they went out for a smoke, sometimes we just stayed in the caf. They would come back inside with rosy cheeks and a smell that I didn’t like. That smell grew on me.

They say addictions are tough. Withdrawal is horrible. This is my story.

Fast-forward four years later and here I am, smoking up to one whole pack of cigarettes per day. They don’t talk about the burning need to run out of your lecture for a smoke; or the feeling of your own body giving up. They don’t talk about how much you enjoy smoking; of feeling the closeness with your friends as you smoke and laugh in the freezing cold. They don’t talk about any of these things, until it’s too late.

I choose graduation.

That’s the day I will be able to call myself smoke-free. I don’t see nicotine as part of my life after Glendon. In university, it almost feels as though you’re protected under the safety net of still being ‘young and in school’. After I graduate, I want to move on — truly. I want to better myself and feel normal again.

I choose graduation.

#leavethepackbehind

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